I am MAADD!!

Why do people want to slap a smile off someones face? The very same people that complain that the world is full of hate and evil? These are the beginnings of a lot of what we face in the world today, nurturing mean, selfish and nasty thoughts then allowing them to pour out of us, then respond with more when someone so much as responds and on it goes till eventually they have forgotten what the heck they thought in the first place. I tell you I think these people are the worst sort than those who are openly antagonistic or arrogant, at least with the latter you get a balance of sorts but the others, no all you get is the clearest confirmation that no matter how much we try we cannot trust people, in fear of them coming out l ike spiteful, jealous and evil vultures.
So why am I saying this? Well I got an email yesterday which cut me to the bone so much I was in tears. It's all to do with the project I am doing for Ellie and the fact that i've redone and changed how i'm doing my website. Now as far as i'm aware i'm not harping on about my website when I harp on about Ellie...and yeah, I've put an appeal out for Ellie on my Facebook, Wayn, My Space, My Yahoo Groups and other popular sites I go on and you know what? I AM NOT BLOODY ASHAMED OF IT. I would do it again for someone else if I had the feeling in my gut that I had when I read about Ellie. That feeling was confirmed when I spent AGES talking to her mum on the phone, I KNOW in my heart that I WANT to feel like a good guy in life, I NEED to feel like i'm doing good works and not idle or bad ones. THATS MY CHOICE so back off. If someone doesnt like me, FINE I wont lose any sleep over it, but if someone just wants to bitch about me then GO AHEAD because YOU will be the one that looks the idiot way before your words show me to be one!! DOH
So, that off my chest now!! I am on Day 2 of not smoking! About a millionth time i've tried this and this time its a lot easier than I thought, I guess i'm more ready for it now. I hate smoking, I dont know anyone that smokes and for what I spend on cigarettes I could be going to DisneyLand Paris a lot sooner!! :) And yeah, the lack of nicotine is probably something to do with my rant above....so shoot me!!!
Yesterday was an emotional day all round, not only was it Day 1 without nicotine but it was also the anniversay of an old friends death, Kirsten was sent home ill from school so she was throwing up everywhere, our mobile hairdresser cancelled at the last minute, that email came in and I locked myself out of my bank account! Doh
On the flip side though, I did get an invitation to a photography beginners class by my friends brother who is a professional photographer! He invited me along because my friend had asked him to, but hey, its all networking right??!! Lol The commissioned wedding album i'm doing is almost done, I dont have permission to share the photos so I cant show them anywhere but I can keep the pictures in my portfolio! Go figure!! I have three more albums that i've been commissioned for then i'm not taking any more orders for them! At least not for a long while!!
Right, this is short and sweet, I have so much on today I dont even know why i'm here. I'm so busy I actually have someone here to sit with the kids! How posh is that??!! LOL
Ok, have a great day whatever your doing...and you two faced, gossiping, back biting cretins!!! :) :)
Toodlepipxx