6 days and now its getting hard

Last Tuesday at 1pm I had my last cigarette. I started smoking when I was 13/14 under the usual peer pressure (though not as bad in the 80's as it is now!) and I just never stopped. I've given up for short periods but not really long enough to become a non-smoker.
I'm not sure what clicked in my head last week, probably sheer laziness to actually go into the shop and buy some but whatever it was i'm very thankful for. The first day I was tearful, angry, frustrated etc (mixed with emotions from other stuff) but each day gets better. I cant say i'm missing smoking, but I do miss the habit of sitting there with one which so far I replace with something else, such as reading my scriptures. I have been in plenty of situations where i've been right by a cigarette shop, got money (or card rather!) in my hand as i'm purchasing something else and I havent been tempted to buy any much less won over!
Today, Day 6 I'm finding it hard, but I think its around this time frame that it happens anyway but I know i'm not going to give in. I am enjoying tasting my food properly, breathing without inhalers and just feeling like i'm a regular person...cos I dont know anyone (ok except my daughter in law and her mum....**hi leanne...hi elaine :D**) that smokes and I always feel odd! Yesterday it was great to be in church and not wonder if anyone can smell smoke on me...I knew they couldn't and I felt clean again.
I am also finding that things are going right for me now, things that I worry about and/or pray about are coming out much better than previously when i've tried dealing with them. The inner peace to me is steadily progressing which i'm grateful for, we all need some inner peace eh?
I know this time I can and will quit smoking for good, this time i've took it to God, and I know He is getting me through so much of it, He has spared me the withdrawal symptoms and has given me the strength to not give in to the temptations as well as have the strength to get through moments of frustration that I wouldnt normally get frustrated over. I know I am not in this alone.
I have chosen not to go the reward route that many people go through when quitting, I dont want a reward to give up something that is bad for me and those around me, I've chosen the hard mind, cold heart way...you dont get rewards for not doing the bad stuff. So I will not be treating myself tomorrow, or next month. I will not buy myself something in the name of being strong or something like that. No, the £135 a month i'll be saving will be transferred to my savings account with my regular monthly saving amount to go towards the plans and commitments we have this year! So life will go on as normal but without celebration for the bad stuff.
So, although I shall blog about this from time to time, or mention it here and there, its just my way of keeping checked in with where i'm at with it all so my family know how i'm doing.
The real stuff (that thing called life) will be the leading factor in this blog...:) Lol
I should be getting my car back this week....and the first thing i'm going to do is fill it up with diesel, load up some clothes, oh and the kids...and go to Brighton!! Yesterday was my Jaymie's birthday, my baby turned 19 and I didn't get to see him! This is the ONLY birthday in his entire life that I haven't been there and believe me its not a nice thing for a mother. He spent most of it in the hospital though as Leanne had a problem with her leg, I cant talk about it cos I dont have her permission to but thankfully she's home and still quite cheerful even though she's in pain, on crutches and cant move far! Hope you get better soon hunny...but just think...you can make all those cards now without feeling guilty!!! Hehehe Dont tell Jay I said that though...I'll deny all knowledge!!! Hehehe
I need to run, I have a load to do but i'll be back sometime later to blog some more...try to catch up...and leave comments to the ones I enjoy reading!! :)

Debsxx