My little life

Not so good at this blogging thing lately! My other blogs were far more alive but then my life was very different then, and I guess I was different too. Now, though things are much better, happier and more settled I find I dont want to open my home life to the world, some things are just so precious that i'm not sure exactly what I want to share and what I dont. I seem to be happy in my own little life doing my own little thing...with those that I love.
On the other hand I might just share something I think is worth sharing, after all sometimes we all need to let out the surplus steam in our heads!
The steam in my head at the moment is spiritual stuff. For so long i've struggled to understand why some of my challenges went from bad to worse, I couldn't quite find what I was supposed to learn or gain from any of them but I guess if life come with instructions it would be rather boring, too easy and not so difficult, ok so that sounds good to me right now but when I think of the bigger picture I know I am grateful for my challenges because in all truthfullness they have made me who I am today and I think i'm a pretty good intentioned person.
Wow, where did that come from?!!
Life this year is good, even with some of the challenges that have overflowed from last year or already presenting themselves to me. I was taking my daughter to school last Thursday morning, just got up the road and my car started grinding, making a funny noise and pulling to the one side. I wasn't sure if i'd get her there much less get home again. Thankfully the car made both directions, and even more thankfully I had someone here to pick Kirsten up at 3.20 so I called my insurance and got it booked in the garage. A few weeks ago I had my first ever car accident in 22 years, it was totally my own fault but thankfully the guy in the car I hit was more concerned about me and my kids than the cars. Another bonus was his car was totally undamaged, but then having a 4x4 it would be, my little peugot 206 went right underneath his bumper and got crushed by his built in tow bar. I gave him all my details and asked him to call me, to date i've heard nothing so that can only be a good thing. Anyway, now the cars in the garage being fixed, they said its not anything major and it can be done within a week, so now i'm juggling finances to find the £200 excess! Doh
In the meantime I am due to pick up a hire car tomorrow, life here isnt that straightforward with the buses unless you are going out of the area or into town!
I had my eye on a 6 second abs machine that I saw on a sky shopping channel, normally they are priced at £34.99 but after browsing on Amazon I got one for £6.89 brand new, the postage was the same amount so I find that rather amazing!! I decided to treat myself to it cos its a whole lot cheaper than the gym and it works the area that bothers me most, so I could well get fit sooner than I thought! :) Still regret giving up the gym last year but I guess thats just what circumstances do from time to time.
I've been trying to get tickets for High School Musical on Ice for Kirsten. She has some Christmas money left over and is HSM mad! So far I cant get any so that's become a sore point in our house! Ho hum, it'll maybe teach her to tell me sooner than the last month they are showing!! Lol
I've been thinking a lot about my purpose in life. This isnt some deep, analytical thinking going on, just a look at what my choices have brought me, what my responsibilities are and what 'tools' I have to continue to improve my role. The biggest thing i'm feeling is gratitude, mainly for being ABLE to have children as well as having four that i'm very close to. Ideally I'd have had a load more than four, but I dont think it was meant to be, but thats ok, there's all sorts of other ways to change that now I cant physically have anymore. When I look back over my last 39 years I can say there's a lot of stuff that I would erase if I could, but more than that there's a lot of stuff that i'd keep and do again, I feel so blessed to have had the life i've had and the guidance that i've had, I don't know how my life could have gone but it could have been a whole lot worse!
I guess i'm just overwhelmed with being a mum, i've been a wife and I enjoy that role too (especially when he is faithful!!) and even though I didn't choose for that family unit to fall apart I am grateful that particular one did because now I believe Heavenly Father has a better plan for me. The ex had his free agency and he used it to his advantage, thats ok now, and in some way i'm even grateful for his choices because if we were still together I doubt I would be on the path i'm on now to being able to live the gospel more fully for myself or my children.
Riddles again, but thats ok, its my blog and my opinion in my world! :P
Off to go die quietly....I have a stinking cold and my head hurts...this attempt at taking my mind off it all hasnt totally worked so now I submit myself to my sofa :)
Debsx